35 weeks

I am quite grateful that at this point of a twin pregnancy I feel this good. I read about others at this point and they seem to fare much worse. I am well enough to go to work, the gym, and stores. I can still make light meals. Though huge, all my weight gain (50 pounds) is belly and boobs so the rest of my body does not even look bad. Somehow I still do not have stretch marks. 

But...a lot of things do suck right now. My feet are permanently swollen. I cannot  even sit or lay for long without it getting worse. When I am at home I raise them above my head to provide relief, but it is hard to lay on my back for long and it hurts to switch from one side to the other. Which is why sleeping sucks. My shoulders and hips hurt from the weight of my body - even if pillows are under me. My back stiffens up so quickly that I dread turning or getting up. The pain almost takes my breath away. My stomach is so large that I cannot turn over sometimes and I get stuck halfway through the process! And my fingers, wrists, feet, and ankles swell overnight and become nearly arthritic for the first hour after getting up.

Ok now that I got all that out... I have noticed some subtle changes over the last one to two weeks. My stomach has hardly any room anymore. I barely eat at this point, and when I do, it is tiny portions. My stool is always loose and is basically diarrhea. I have a few contractions a day, nothing painful and only in my lower abdomen. Occasionally I feel menstrual type cramps, especially at night, which have no timeable frequency. 

The boys have never been frequent movers (kick counts would never have worked for me) but they are moving less than ever. I do feel something from them every day, but I think they are just so squished. Baby B I believe has tried to move toward birthing position a few times because I have noticed his head toward the side. But I think he runs out of room to rotate and/or faces opposition from his happily breech brother, and cannot complete the movement. I will know more tomorrow. Looking forward to finding out their measurements and receiving confirmation that they are ok. Because I still worry. The anxiety between ultrasounds always builds, and crescendos, right before appointments, and now at this point, I allow myself to think of NICU, birth defects, cord accidents, and all kinds of horrible things. 

32w1d

For this point in a twin pregnancy, I feel pretty good. However, I still have complaints, of course! My lower back and pelvis are sore nearly all the time when I walk, get up, or turn over in bed. My belly is getting much more heavy and low so I am feeling more pressure and restriction on positions. Basically, I am never comfortable for long and that is exhausting. My feet also swell more often now, which freaks me out a bit, though my OB reassured me that it is minimal swelling and usually twin mommies look a lot worse at this point!

At my 31 week ultrasound, the boys looked good. They weigh 3.6 and 3.11 pounds, which is at and above average for twin weights. They passed the breathing tests. Unfortunately, both are breech so that nay have sealed my fate for a C-section. Lots of people have reassured me their babies have turned after this stage, but they seem to forget they had only one in there. With two, there is far less room to do so. Either way, maybe I should get my ass in gear and research ways to help them turn.

The nursery is coming along. We sorted all our baby shower gifts and I feel a lot better not having shit all over the house. Still need to buy a few more things, set up the monitors, and complete decorations.

We have decided on day care and have interviewed two out of three oediatricians thus far. The final interview is next week so that will be completed soon. 

I cannot believe there are only six weeks left at maximum until they are here. The anxiety about their birth, their chances of survival, everything, is more prevalent and I need to take time and my mental health more.