Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Phantom Pregnancy

I am a pathetic sack of shit. A negative test at 13 dpo, plus slight cramping, indicates a period is nigh. 


I know my only real "symptom" - sore heavy breasts- is from the progesterone supps. The incredible thirst, which was a symptom when I was pregnant for realsies, is probably just from all the unhealthy food and dehydration experienced while in Indiana.


So why am I hoping that all evidence is wrong and I am pregnant?


Because I am a pathetic sack of shit. 

5 comments:

  1. So sorry hon, the games we play with ourselves is the worst. Try finding something to stay busy. It does not totally help but you might get a moment of relief.

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    1. Thanks! I know you're right, it's just so hard to think about snything else sometimes.

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  2. I understand. Negative Beta today and they told me to stop the prog supps. I just feel like until I bleed I MIGHT have hope. Fuck this shit! lol XOXXO Kaeleigh aka: Unpregnant Chicken

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  3. We all do it. We can't help it. It's like an irresistible impulse. Hope is hard to kill, even when all the evidence is stacked and we know that it will hurt so much more later if we don't accept it now. It's the worst. :(

    But it doesn't make you a pathetic sack of shit. It just makes you human.

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    1. Thanks. It's so easy to get down on myself so I appreciate the encouragement

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