Will the babies be ok? Will they have fluid in their lungs and ears? Will they be non-responsive, too tiny, too weak to be passed into my arms? Will I feel too drugged up or nauseous to want to hold them?
Yes, I realize this is just one day in their lives, and even if the birth experience is not smooth, we will still bond as a family. But damnit, this is likely my only birth experience and I want it to be somewhat pleasant! It is already being skewed by being a C section and in the OR.
Because these boys are still breech. They are squished. I barely even feel them move anymore, though ultrasound assures me they are squirming constantly.
I was not dilated nor effaced at 35w2d, the last (and thankfully only!) time this was checked. I have one or two contractions per day that I notice - I assume there are more but I never feel them. The babies have dropped a bit and besides the swelling, soreness, fatigue and largeness, I feel good and like I could last a few more weeks if needed.
So hopefully they will stay put until a week from today. There is a tropical storm/hurricane on its way this weekend and people have gleefully reminded me that these weather conditions incite births. (WHY someone wants to wish labor on me, I do not know. But shut the fuck up.) Hopefully it will just be a lot of rain and babies will stay put. I really do not want to deal with hurricane hysteria at the hospital, especially in combination with an emergency/unscheduled C section.